Have you tried them yet? “Oops, All Berries.” Full of sugar and sugar and sugar. And last night I had two bowls of them! Why? Frustration…
Yep, here’s another adoption post where I let out the uglies. Did I ever assume this adoption was for the light-hearted? No. Did I assess my patience level much higher than it is? Yes.
Last night I checked the online list of NC Bethany families waiting to adopt. Last week there were…count it…16 of us waiting…wondering…obsessively checking our cell phones. We were 1 in 16 waiting families.
Last night the number…12. What? 4 families got placements recently. 4 families got THAT phone call. 4 families are holding their sweet babies. 4 families got picked over US!
And there we sit, middle of the list, with our humongo family squeezed into a little square picture. The only family on there with more than 1 kid.
Do birthmoms look at our profile and think we’re insane? Do they see that mild look of crazy in my eyes that sometimes wonders if I can even handle another?
This isn’t a contest. The spiritual me rejoices in God’s miracle working hand, and I’m reminded that I serve the same God.
But the flesh side of me…it’s pretty ugly. I get all worked up. I eat 2 bowls of cereal. I give up on the whole thing.
Then I read these words I recently wrote on a prayer card…
“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You.” (Psalm 39:7)
My hope is in Him. I’m not waiting to be picked. I’m not waiting for a phone call. I’m watching for my faithful God to move. My hope is in Him.