I’ve always been Type-A. Being the second kid, only girl, born a surprise 11 years after my brother, didn’t help. I even lean towards perfectionism and have to fight those tendencies off. I see those same struggles in one of our boys.
Unfortunately, I’ve also grown up as a Type-A Christian. Let me explain…
-I read lots of Christian books.
-I never curse (“crap” is my weakness)
-I rock a Tankini at the pool (the Mommy suit)
-My boys can sing every word to the Summit’s worship CD.
-I don’t watch R rated movies (they scare the heebie-jeebies out of me)
Good practice…good habits…I know. But the problem is that for years I’ve counted on my perfections, on my righteousness as a way to draw closer to God. Nope, salvation isn’t based on works. I know I’m saved by grace. But I have a tendency to believe that God only loves me when I’m doing things right; things like the list above.
God has lovingly been destroying these lies. Even in my “earn favor” times with Him, His Word has spoken. God loves me today because of Jesus. He sees me as holy and blameless because of His Son.
I will still work hard to honor Him. But I won’t do it to earn His love. I’ll do it because I’m amazed at His love.
“Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God.” (Ephesians 5:1,2)