Life isn’t quite as busy for us. Yes, Christmas cards, Christmas trees, Christmas parties…they are filling my days. But overall, life is simpler. No diapers, no cribs, no afternoon naps. Slow.
My soul, however, is busy. Busy worrying about sick kids. Busy fighting hopelessness over the adoption. Busy asking God the same questions over and over. Busy
I’ve been re-evaluating my time. Considering where I’m investing my minutes and energy. Asking God so show me where I’ve said yes when I should have said no.
Because while this season of parenting has slowed, this season of my soul is busy.
I’ve tried to ignore it. Act like I’m not wrestling with God. Act like my time with Him is peachy. But most days, it’s not. It’s a battle. And some days I think I’m losing.
So I’m cutting back. Accepting that a busy soul season means I need more time to be still. More time to listen. More time to let Him lead.
Psalm 23:1-3-“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.”
Isaiah 40:11-“He will tend his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms; he will carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young.”