When you go back…

The last time we were here I got the phone call with the referral for Amelia. The referral we turned down. The baby girl I wept for. The one I now know was not ours.


This week we went back. Same park. Same me. Same 3 crazy boys.


And I breathed deeply. Accepted that today, as it is, is God’s best for me.


We went letterboxing. Followed clue after clue til we found the little box buried under a rock. Stamped our hands. Signed our names.


A journey. A search. Finding joy along the way. Over bridges. Up hills. Around trees. Not really knowing the destination but being sure it’s there.


“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” (Psalm 123:1-3)


2 thoughts on “When you go back…

  1. You sound at peace! So glad you had a great day with your boys and that you are content with being right where God wants you to be.

    I’ve prayed for Amelia and thought about her a lot. They haven’t posted any updates since October. Do you know how she’s doing?

    1. Thanks Beth! I haven’t heard any specific updates, but Jaime posted pictures at Christmas that were absolutely beautiful. Amelia looks great. God has truly amazed me in all this.

      I am praying for you and your family. I just spent some time reading your blog. Thank you for the honest, real updates. I can’t imagine how you are processing it all. Please keep us updated, and we will keep praying for you and sweet Rebecca.

      “The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteousness and his ears toward their cry.” Psalm 34:15

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