We met recently and I asked what she did. She works. She told me this quickly then added her impressive job title as if justification was needed. It wasn’t.
I’m a master of excuses. We homeschool (“I could never get the kids out the door.”) I can’t commit to that (“We have 5 kids.”). We can’t have all those people over (“The house is a wreck.”).
There is truth to most of my excuses. In fact, lots of them make complete sense and cross over from excuse to practicality.
But sometimes I feel guilty. Sometimes I feel insecure. Sometimes I want to justify myself in front of you. So I answer your question then tell you the why. Weak sometimes. Strong sometimes. Mostly wondering what you are thinking.
Growing up I did lots of Bible studies on self-image. Read verse after verse. All of them have helped. But ultimately, there’s one reason I can look in the mirror each morning. There’s one reason I can be confident in what God has called me to in this present season.
It’s Him. I wrote it in my Bible in 6th grade…”I’m worth Jesus to God.”
He loves me so big. Even when I have big fear. Even when I’m looking for big approval.
I am His. So loved. So justified. And able to move in humble confidence because the God of this big universe gave up His only Son for me.
“Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed.” (Isaiah 53:4,5)
Watching football together…She loves her brothers!