Hope in the Middle releases tomorrow!

We’re less than 24 hours from release day!

So I thought I’d give you a little peak into how this writing process has gone.

1-I’m on my fourth order of books. Set 1 was sad and worthy of lots of corrections. Set 2 was much better. Set 3 arrived with about 6 errors. And set 4 will be the one you receive.

Am I confident it’s without error this time? No. But I believe you are people of grace.=)

2-My computer died about 5 weeks ago. After a slight panic, I remembered that I had emailed the document to myself a few days before. Thank goodness!

Why am I telling you all this? Because it’s not been easy. And it reminds me that God is gracious. And here we are…a day away…and it’s done. Grace.

And just maybe God, in His grace, will somehow use these words. To pour hope into all of us…tired Moms, discouraged spouses, lonely friends.

 “So that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.” (Titus 2:7)

Trusting cross grace never ends. Thanks for your love and support!

“Hope was wrapped in rags for me. Hope was laid in a feeding trough for me. Pain came before birth. Before Jesus uttered his first cry, Mary hurt. She labored to bring the Son of God into this dying world. There was pain before hope. There was darkness before light. There was a manger before the miracle. There was a cross before Easter Sunday. No matter how twisted or pointless life may seem, God is fulfilling His mission–for us and in us.”




The “why” behind Hope in the Middle

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That’s me and Esther the night she was born. What smiles!

But it wasn’t like that on the journey.  It wasn’t like that as we waited for nearly two years. It wasn’t like that as we wondered if “M” would change her mind. It wasn’t like that as I swam from hope to hopelessness day after day after day.

No. It was hard. Waiting is hard. Uncertainty can choke. And when we’re doing something we feel like God has called us to, the lack of answers can paralyze.

That’s where I was when most of Hope in the Middle was written. Not smiling holding our sweet baby girl. But fighting in the trenches. Asking myself if God was worthy of my trust.

And I fought and fought hopelessness. And He kept loving me and loving me and loving me.

Because the cross promises we’re never alone. It promises we are always loved. And it reminds us that hope is only found in Him…no matter what uncertainty we find ourselves in the middle of.

“Maybe hope is more than something we do. Maybe it’s primarily about a gift–a promise. Hope is the guarantee I cling to when I lack the faith to act or even believe. It’s a good gift from a good God.”

(PS-I’ve ordered about 15 extra books. If you still want to pre-order, let me know. 8 days till release day!!)

“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.” (Psalm 62:5-7)



Pre-Order Starts Today!

Okay friends. Hope in the Middle doesn’t release till October 10. But I’d love for you to get an early print copy!

Here goes:

-If you’d like an early copy all you need to do is email me (tiffanypollard1@gmail.com) or comment on either my blog or Facebook with your email address. I’ll respond with all the details you need and your book will arrive before it actually releases on October 10.

-Pre-release copy is $12 (The extra $2 is to cover shipping).

-Here’s where I could use your help, though. On release day, I’m asking any friends who have pre-ordered the book (and hopefully read some of it) to give it some love through Facebook and/or some good reviews on Amazon. Basically, I’ll let you read it early if you help me get the word out on October 10th!=)

-Oh, and in order for it to arrive early, I’ll be closing the pre-order next Tuesday night, September 26.

So there goes. This is really happening! And I’d be really, really excited if you’d join me in this new adventure. Praying He will be glorified!

Let me know if you have any questions!

Here’s the back cover if you’re wondering exactly what it’s about…

“‘So now faith, hope, and love aide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.’ For years I’ve missed the middle word in that list. Hope. I’ve tried so hard to have faith and love that I’ve neglected hope. I’ve gotten busy doing life and taken hope for granted. Marriage. Family. Friendship. Adoption. The hopelessness I’ve felt at times has been suffocating. But God has been faithful. The Gospel free us to find hope in the middle of whatever we face. Jesus’ death on our behalf rebuilds and renews all the hopelessly broken pieces. In Him we can find hope in the middle of uncertainty.”


Let the fun begin!

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

A new book is coming!

I’ve been silent on here lately for 1 pretty huge reason.

It’s taking all my spare time and extra thoughts.

…A new book is in the works!…

If you’ve followed this blog for long, you probably remember the depths of spiritual warfare and low moments we faced from 2012-2014 while waiting for Esther’s adoption.

There were times during that journey when things looked hopeless as the waiting dragged on and on.

But God was faithful (always). He refreshed me continually with one word. 


I studied and studied hope during those years. I wrote what I learned. 

And now I’m putting it out there for you to read.

Not because it’s amazing. Not because I want you reading my journal. 

But because God has changed me through hope. He’s refreshed and encouraged. He’s stretched me. He’s comforted.

Here’s a small excerpt from the intro…

“I have written this book as a reflection of my  own life. Yes, I talk about our adoption journey, but this is ultimately not an adoption book. I also write as a homeschooling mom, but this is not a homeschooling book. If you’ve ever questioned God’s sovereignty in the middle of your suffering or ever found yourself feeling hopeless in the middle of life’s hardships, I believe this  book is for you!”

So I’d covet your prayers…Hope in the Middle releases on Tuesday, October 10.

You’ll be able to buy it through Amazon or my blog…in print ($10) or on Kindle ($7).

(And I may even have a pre-release coming up for you tomorrow!)

Trusting God will graciously use this book to weave hope into the broken parts of all of us! Thank you for praying!

“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.” (Psalm 39:7)


Writing…I love it. Editing…not so much!



When Pain Collides with Christmas

I saw her the other day. The past few months have held pain. Unexpected. Heart-wrenching. I can see the questions still lingering in her eyes.

It’s a part of her story now. I can’t look at her without seeing it. She can’t look in the mirror without remembering.

There’s pain that lingers. Becomes us. Forms the tapestry of our lives. Becomes a glue holding the moments together.

And the song “Good, Good Father” has been on repeat for days. Is He really only good? Are these painful moments I see burned into her being from His Hand? Are the memories that still bring tears really His best for her? For me? For us?

“You are perfect in all of your ways.” He’s singing it over and over while I type this. Perfect. All.

Will I only take good from His hand and not bad? Can I call the good perfect and not the bad? Do His actions define His character or does His character define His actions?

He redeems. He came for that purpose. For us. And it started out rough-In a stable. It ended rough-On a cross. But in all of it He was showing love. He was working in the unexpected. He was living the most painfully beautiful story ever to be written.

And He was doing it for her. The broken girl with the painful story. He was doing it for me. The Mom with more question marks scribbled in her Bible than notes.

The Redemption that we celebrate at Christmas continues each day. It trickles into our pain. It bottles every tear that we cry (Psalm 56:8). When the hands go up, so can the face. And somehow, tenderly, He is redeeming our moments.

That’s our “Good, Good Father.” Merry Christmas!!

“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” (Isaiah 9:6)

IMG_0087 (PS-If you’re wondering, we didn’t do a Christmas card this year. No excuses!)